LOVE

So, my original post was meant to be written last week, but the music video I wanted to put up was erased from the entire internet for some reason. It was a live video of Portugal. The Man playing "All Your Light" in Germany. I had a good idea of what I wanted to write, but without the video, it was not near as powerful and clear. If you dare, beg them to put the video back online... it's amazing, and I am having withdrawals without it.

So, without that, my mind has been overwhelmed with a HEAVY, HEAVY topic... LOVE. It's such a hard thing to understand, and I think it is different for each person. Being divorced has made me really confused on how it all works, what it involves, how to nurture it properly, and how to feel it again. I have heard a lot of divorced people feel like they will never find it again, and I can relate. It's a scary thought, and deep down, I know it's not true, but it's hard to kick out the negative thoughts. Honestly, I really don't want to get too deep into it, but the idea of love makes me excited to live. It's definitely a driving force to living a beautiful life. I think most people agree. One of my favorite films "Into the Wild"(based on a true story) portrays college graduate who leaves civilization, burns his money and identification, and abandons his car to leave a corrupt, shallow society, as he views it. He finds beauty in the peace that comes from living off the land, and being completely independent and free from the system. But at his more desperate state, he carves into a piece of wood the following: "HAPPINESS IS NOT REAL UNLESS SHARED." I think this is a profound, perfect statement. If you haven't seen the movie, I HIGHLY recommend it, and if not that, read the book. It definitely makes you see the world in a different light. 

Anyways, I feel like this post is a little off beat from my past two, but what I really wanted to share in this post is a video that was shared with me. When I saw it the first time, I nearly cried. To me, this is love. And I love what they have done in this video to evoke such a strong, beautiful connection. This is what I want. This is the love that I am committed to one day creating. (I couldn't attatch the video so please click the link, make it full screen, turn up your volume, and enjoy)

Go Do by IRIS AND LIGHT

The cool thing about these videos is that they are actual couples' engagement videos. SUCH AN AWESOME IDEA! Way better than a few photos. You are committing to love a person for the rest of your life, why not make it insanely artistic media piece that reminds you of how awesome you are for each other. THIS IS TRUE BEAUTY.

MEDIA

Okay, so as promised, I want to explain Robert Lobetta's impact on me this last week at Paul Mitchell's annual CAPER event. His presentation was basically about not letting the outside noise of others drown out your inner voice and intuition and being true to who you are in whatever you do. His approach, of coarse, was directed toward the trade of hairdressing. I saw a deeper, more meaningful side to his inspiring words. I thought about my blog, and the purpose of it. I think what I really want, is to connect with my soul; be it a God-given spirit, a subconsciousness, or a Jiminy Cricket. If it is the spiritual side to my being, then it is the beautiful side to my existence. I saw this so called "intuition" Robert spoke of to be the seemingly God-given, and naturally & artistically inspired part to any creative being. What I am starting to believe is that inside of each being, a beautiful, clear, perfectly unique voice speaks... and we tend to rarely here it. I am not referring to any type of devil or angel standing shoulder-side, despite my reference to Jiminy Cricket. I am more referring to a creative voice whose mission is to make life more beautiful and enjoyable; the innate desire to create that comes pre-packaged with every human body. For example, before a child can speak, they can be found stacking blocks or scribbling different colors together; as this desire matures and transforms it turns into something like Frank Lloyd Wright's architectural masterpiece, "Falling Water". This is the inner-voice I am referring to.

Frank Lloyd Wright's Falling Water, 1935.

Now, I figure, if this voice is inside of me (and I truly believe it is), how do I find it and connect with it? The answer came from Robert Lobetta... CUT OUT THE OUTSIDE NOISE. Not an easy task, but I acknowledge and accept his advice. His words were not limited to this message, as he then shared a short film that he had made. I felt the film was the start to a new movement that could, quite likely, revolutionize the hair industry. Titled "Fallen", the film takes avant-garde hairstyles and blends them into some kind of artistic, intensely emotional, new media super-power shake. I was blown away by how he was able to communicate the emotional side of a haircut, color, and style. His purpose may have been different in making this film, but I fell in love with this idea. Here is his film:

Upon watching this film a few times after I had returned from Las Vegas, I was starving... starving for more inspiration; something that speaks to my soul, something that makes me think differently... so I started really digging into youtube, to find something that drowns out all of the dirty media noise I sometimes get use to hearing, and to find some revolutionary media music that fills my creative cup. Soon, I was able to find some truly, beautiful uses for the technology society has developed. Below is one of the most inspiring, powerful, emotional short films I was able to stumble upon. Please, turn up the volume and watch with an open mind, and allow it to speak to you rather than being skeptical and analytical. 

One of the comments I read below this video read, "Watching things like this make me wonder what I've been wasting my life doing." I wondered the same. How much time do I end up wasting on dirty, outside noise? What amazing songs have I not heard? What beautiful art have I not seen? What creations am I missing out on? Basically, what inspiration is just floating around, waiting to be found, that I am missing out on because of wasted time and pointless distractions? Now... I do believe in finding an inner-voice that is independent of these inspirations, but the realization has really become an amplified one, that my quality of life and my life experience revolves highly around what I take in and allow into my life. Like the insightful "youtuber", I wonder what have I been wasting my life doing. My new goal is no more wasted life. There is too much out there to let it go to waste. I'm only welcoming beauty from now on, and always keeping an eye out for new perspectives. This year will be a well-lived one, full of growth and new experiences. If a minute is unintentionally wasted, I plan on making it up with an hour of well-lived life. 

Las Vegas.

The past week has been a fast-paced, exciting week. Last weekend, I visited SLC, Utah to a few things for the salon at IKEA, and just to get away from Rexburg and spend some time with friends. It was a good trip, and it was nice to eat at some different restaurants and experience a little more culture than Rexburg is use to offering. We were also able to vist the Lunatic Fringe salon on 11th while we were there to get a tour and visit with platform artist, Dave Holland. It was my first introduction to him, and I was very impressed by his humility and kindness... he is definitely a new mentor in my eyes.


Upon returning from Utah Sunday evening, I did some laundry and packed up to head to the airport Monday, arriving at 2pm. I arrived in Las Vegas that evening for Paul Mitchell's annual CAPER and  just returned home this morning. The event was full of high energy as expected, I met some amazing people, and was inspired to the fullest. I was even able to spend some time in the sun and sightsee a little. We stayed in Caesar's Palace, which is a beautiful hotel. I am amazed by the thought put into the designs, architecture, and art in Las Vegas. 

The past few times that I have visited, I had left with a kind of sorrow for some of the negative aspects of that city. I remember catching a few glimpses of people stumbling home from nightclubs, the homeless begging for money, the exploitation and disrespect of sexuality, and all of the artificiality of the ideals of a "Sin City" that "never sleeps" and its contentment and dependency in temporary relief, instant gratification, and an animalistic desire for constant pleasure. I saw those things this trip, but I think I saw past it and was able to focus in on some of the beauty of a broken city. There is a romance to all of the lights, and to the hopes and dreams that people have for something more in their lives. There is a lot of opportunity in that city, and I think people come there to take advantage of it. 

 Brandon Flowers released an album that I think captures the intrigue and beauty of this complicated city. The album is titled, "Flamingo"... If you don't know what I mean, visit his website at http://www.brandonflowersmusic.com/index. But truly I think this music video reflects this spirit: 

The whole album is portrays the more 

positive, but complex, spirit of Las Vegas and the hope and dreams contained within it. I almost feel as if the attitude it portrays is a kind of sad, desperate, confused, lost, but hopeful perspective. I definitely see a great deal of beauty in the idea of searching for happiness. I think that is what it is that makes a sad situation still beautiful... because there is still hope. 

Beyond the new appreciation and perspective I have gained on this city from this trip, I have greatly been influenced and inspired in my trade.  One of the most influential presentations I saw was that of Robert Lobetta, who calls himself the lunatic of Hair. He has turned hairdressing into film, contemporary art, and something so much more than cosmetology alone. To put it bluntly, he has taken what he loves and done whatever the hell he wants to with it. Please, if you haven't heard of him, look him up or his video titled "Fallen" on youtube. Such an inspiring man. I have run into a new obsession inspired by this man which I think will be the topic of my next post, so be sure to check it out. 

I feel so good right now about this blog. It already has fed a thirst that I think has been burning inside of me. I needed to communicate these things, and sort them out in my head enough to write them. And I am loving having the opportunity of sharing them. I think I know what to make with this blog now, and I am excited. 

Living With Eyes (A New Chapter of Life)

This is crazy... I never really imagined myself blogging. And as I am typing the first few words of this blog, I'm realizing I have no idea what a blog is supposed to be, or why I am doing it. I think it has to do something with reminding myself and understanding the type of life I want to live (an idea that I have been obsessed with over the past year or so). So this blog is for me... and maybe eventually a few close friends. I guess we'll see how the blog, itself, develops and evolves. I have a feeling my entries here may start out a bit too personal but I hope to work into something a bit more traditional for this type of thing.

To start out, I suppose I should give an explanation of who I think I am, so I can get a good idea of who I want to be. Just to preface, I am normally an extremely private, candid person... I often view sharing personal feelings as unprofessional and potentially harmful to my reputation. I guess I am hoping that this can still be personal and public at the same time for now. I don't know what that means... it just feels right to be able to communicate my feelings to a small computerized community of people I trust.

I am in a huge transitional stage of my life... highly confused, scared, questioning everything, redefining happiness every day. Although I mostly feel happy and satisfied with my direction, life events over the past ten months have thrown my emotions into an ever-changing state. A recent divorce, of which I will spare the details, has been the hardest event of my life this far. It really has made me question everything from my own personal worth, to the integrity and value of the human race, to my innermost beliefs. It has felt good let go of something that had no grasp on me.

I am a passionate person. If there is one thing I know about myself, it is that. The things I feel, I feel DEEPLY. I wish it weren't true with some things, but I love that it is with others. Some of the deeper things that I value include: spirituality, relationships, being a good person, simplicity, and contentment. I also strongly value art & design, music, fashion, nature, and health.

ABOVE ALL: I WISH TO LIVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE. A SIMPLE LIFE, FILLED WITH SIMPLE BEAUTY, TRANQUILITY, AND LOVE... hence, the name of this blog "Living with Eyes".

I suppose I could have named this blog "Living With Eyes That See" because I just hope to understand what life is all about. I have heard the religious explanations, and I love and appreciate them. But I mean, for me personally... I want to understand how to have the most enjoyable, peaceful life experience and positively effect those around me. I don't want to just live. I want to live with purpose, meaning, and with a undying desire to keep living everyday of life with an excitement for each new hour and the opportunity it brings. I guess I am creating this blog in hopes to create a dream board of what beauty is to me, so that I can incorporate as much of it into my life as possible. So much of my enjoyment in life comes from my five senses, and I don't want to deprive any of them... but in particular, I want to spoil my eyes. For me that means seeing sunrises and sunsets, the tallest mountains, the greenest trees, the face of a loved one I have positively impacted, seeing an artist passionately recreate something in their heart in physical form... really I just wish to magnify all of those small glimpses I have had of perfect moments throughout my life. There is something about being a child and the feelings I remember from my youngest years, that I wish to reinvent in my adult self. I have a confidence that tells me I can do it... but I guess only time will tell.

I am passionately fulfilled in my trade as a hairdresser. I am in love with my role as an active musician/singer for a band with some of my closest friends. I feel extremely fortunate to have the life I have, but I feel that I have an infinite amount to learn about living a truly beautiful life. I have high hopes for the year of 2012. I feel like it is going to be an amazing year. I get excited for everything it will bring, and I am excited to, hopefully, commit to documenting some of it through this blog.

So here is the hard part for me: WINTER in REXBURG, ID. This place is actually pretty amazing in the summer, but in these cold months of February, I miss my old friend some like to call "The Sun." I don't know if I can legitimately call it "Seasonal Depression", but this time of year gets pretty discouraging for me. So here is the dilemma... I hate the cold (I literally sprint into and out of my car) but I love the outdoors. As much as I love my job, my friends, and my situation in this little town, I just hate these cold, dark months. It is obviously worth it, as I am still here, but I hope that my current path leads me to somewhere with at least 10 months of pretty steady warmth. Oh, how I miss riding my bike and listening to Fleet Foxes, Local Natives, Toro Y Moi, or Seabear... the thought of it kills me. Nothing can replace how peaceful that can be. I don't know why I am so attracted to something so simple, but I totally am. So I awake everyday with high hopes for sunshine and warm temperatures, but I think it's mostly in vain until April.

So, I am taking a random trip to SLC this weekend with some of my best friends, Talmage, Josh Peterson, and Alexa. Just to hang out, relax, visit IKEA, and maybe do some mild shopping. And then Monday I am off to Vegas for Caper ( A Paul Mitchell Event celebrating the industry). It'll be the third time I have visited Las Vegas in the past eight months with some sort of hair industry related agenda in mind. I am excited to say the least. Even just a break from this weather is enough to get me excited, but this event is huge and filled with positive energy so it'll most definitely be a good start to my new commitment to live with eyes that see. I am hoping some of what my eyes see can become a huge part of what drives this blog, because I am personally a bigger fan of pictures than of paragraphs of depressing drama (Although, you might seriously question that at this point in this post).
Here's to the new life I begin living this dark February night, alone in this borrowed bedroom. It begins to feel more beautiful the closer I get to hitting the "Publish" button below. I guess this is where I start... here we go.